Lies!!

Beautifully written, “She felt feeling nothing”

You’re waiting aren’t you,
You’re always waiting for a sign
Something that’ll help you believe
In him and all of his lies.

You’re in denial about the truth
Never questioning his excuse
Say you think highly of yourself
But you still entertain his mental abuse.

What happened to your soul
I see bruises and the scars
He never deserved to touch your canvas
How’d you forget that you are an art.

I know it fucking hurts
But I will just say this because it’s true
Any man who hurts your heart
Is incapable of falling for you.

And I know somewhere you agree
This is the hardest lesson learned
Thought it was cool to play with fire
But no one warned you that it’d burn.

Now all the promises were broken
You cut yourself on shards of lies
Smiling in every selfie
But inside you scream and cry.

Now what has a heart to do
When it aches black and blue
You put trust in his hands
But now his hands are harming you.

There is love, I hope you find it
It lives within, I hope you find it
That text says, “Baby you look awesome” or “I understand you”
But I hope you know he’s lying.

Think of me a friend
Or a stranger who gives a fuck
I just wish to see you grow
I’m tired of seeing you stuck.

You need to believe that everything he confessed as “Truth” was a lie.

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She will find a way…!

So love happened again,
Out of blue.
A new chapter begin,
This time it was true.
No games involved,
Except the love itself.
She was now a mystery solved,
Magically she found herself.
This was the best thing,
Ever happened to her.
Unless life cut her wings,
And everything becomes blur.
This time god stepped in,
The one she thought gave her the happiness.
But didn’t know, will become a sin.
Still wondering about her luck in matter of love,
Well, to fall once again , she doesn’t have any guts.
She was the victim , she was the criminal,
She wished she would have fallen for someone who was little bit of original.
Her friends ping her to know how she feel,
Typing “wssp” and expect her to reveal.
She was tired of becoming strong and keeping her ego high,
She realized that their bond is over without a goodbye.
She screamed in mute in pain,
Pillow soaked all her rain.
Finally dead soul melting on bed,Hurt heart beating in pray,
She woke up smiling, promising she will find a way.

How they met?

At times you don’t know if it’s an end to something or beginning of other,

Still you choose to forgive yourself and continue the journey.

Because even if you have tons of haters, you choose to continue for few who loves you.

Don’t know if she was happy or sad,
Few things were good, rest was bad.

She herself was confused with her smile,
Wondering if it’s real or fake across several miles.

She loved one and was judgemtal about many ,
Wondering if her presence troubles any.

The so called “Love” whom she liked, thought she is fake,
While others were talking about her sadist story as cherry on cake.

Few days ago she was in guilt, thinking she did something wrong,
Well, the bitter truth broke her heart but she acted strong.

She realised that loved one lied on her face,
And unfortunately she did few confessions of hers with grace .

She is not sure if she has any regrets about her confessions,
She felt like a fool who believed his words and continued her life session.

She felt betrayed and lost,
Turning into an introvert was the cost.

Slowly she was turning into an isolated girl,
Who was messed up by her own decisions made in this life’s curl.

This was one of the rare scenarios when she thought, “mom & dad were right”,
And that day a talkative girl became quite.

She couldn’t accept the fact, that her choice was wrong,
She felt like she has become like a cold hearted bitch now and maybe for lifelong.

If she recall the situations, she was able to join the dots,
She realised how stupid she was to trust his words without any “Why’s and what”.

Somewhere she knew the truth but she choosed to believe him,
Maybe that decision of hers dragged her life to sink.

As its said , “Love is blind” , she gave him benefit of doubt,
Thinking there can be a reason why he never spoke truth out .

But then it was depressing when she realized he didn’t care ,
And she felt that fools like her who let their self respect chucked are rare.

It was high time for her to take practical decisions,
As anyways she was a “Bitch” in his vision.

With a broken heart and a strong mindset,
She decided to forget “How they met”.

And maybe this time , don’t worry about past or future,

Try to go with the flow.

And it’s a wrap!

With a ‘Hope’ to be back soon ๐Ÿ™‚

Until then signing off.

Each journey has a end,
Each dream has a reason.
At times, reasons go wrong.
Hence, dreams die.
At times, confusion is barrier between ego and self respect,
And finally you need to take “Left” turn and leave your dreams behind.
Because at times :
There are no more “words” left,
There are no more truths left to be revealed,
And many reasons for a journey to end.

–Rusted Leaves Writer ๐Ÿ™‚

Am I Fine?

Those joyful days,

Birthday plan in month of May.

Those stress-free weeks,

Where fun was the priority at any peak.

All these last for a while and life throws battles on us,

It tries to test our strength and trust.

You never know what Mr. Fate has planned for you,

Things might make you happy or break you.

You won’t be able to face crowd,

You may wonder what is it all about.

The only company you would like to prefer will be of “yours”,

Youmight get scared to explore.

Thepast might kill your heart,

Well, you may imagine your dreams getting apart.

You won’t be able to blame anyone,

Inorder to escape from present, you cannot even run.

And then you sit and think how happy you were once upon a time,

Seeing yourself right now, you may question yourself, “Am I fine?”.

Heart Talk–Fake !

At some point of time, you may be banged up, mentally and emotionally.Literally and metaphorically.But every day you need to walk outside with a smile on your face because that is who you are.

Maybe you’ll feel sorry for all bullshit life gave you.You maybe annoyed at yourself.But you cannot allow few stories to get revealed on your face.And if others think, you’re fake .Then it’s okay. They only know the story which you want to show.So make sure you are making choices which is good for you.

People may think you’ve changed.So let them think. Because no matter how hard you try, someone, somewhere is gonna be unhappy and trust me you cannot do anything.You need to understand and believe that you are not heartless, maybe you have become emotionally conservative. And if that makes world think that you have changed then you cannot do anything.

Sometimes , you go through something and it hurts and you don’t know if things are ever going to be okay again. But then days go by and you learn how to handle yourself and the mess which you created on first place. It might be hard to believe, but the sooner you accept , you’ll be able to move on.
You think maybe you’re ignoring your emotions and they’ll come back out of no where. Until you realise that you’ve learned to keep things among yourselves. You learn how to keep yourselves away from those haunting thoughts. Maybe few things didn’t break you rather they made you more mature and kind of a strong person.
And if still people think that you’ve changed or you’re rude or worst case you have mastered in ignoring them, then Maybe it’s not your fault.
Let the circumstances play it’s role because even if you want to change mindset of those who think you’re fake, you may end up hurting yourself all over again.

So , at times it’s okay to be fake and selfish.

Heart Talk–Tantrums!

You may not be able to control every situation and it’s outcome but you can control your attitude and how you deal with it. In your life you may walk across conditions whose consequences can be bad or worst.But all you can do is , stay there and watch.

There will be a time when the reality will hit you hard. Realities like, your parents are the only one to handle all your tantrums. I know it might hurt you. But that’s actually true.You may find hard to survive in this world. You may think , “How cruel this world is?” You may feel ,”Sorry for yourself.”But here is the bitter truth. You are way too selfish to think all these because these things starts bothering you when you’re the one suffering.

Well, that’s human nature. And in order to show world you may act weak or strong depending on your needs.But you’ll reach to a point, when you  will be okay with everything happening in others life. And the reason behind is, maybe you’re so much lost in your life that deep inside you don’t care what’s happening around you.

You may act as as strong, funny, carefree person but ,every day , before you sleep , some kind of thoughts keep haunting your brain.You may have regrets carrying within yourself.Maybe those regrets are worth. Maybe you shouldn’t have ever crossed line from your side in anyway. You must have broke at some particular time when you should have actually acted strong and bold. And there you go. That moment is still rolling over your head. 

You may get confused that whose side you’re. There will be people at each stage of your life trying to influence you. And when you think that “It’s very easy to brain wash your thoughts.” Well, I feel that’s the fakest reason one can give to console themselves.
There will be time people will talk about you behind your back. Few may think you’re overdramatic and make fuss about everything. Maybe you don’t create scenes intentionally. But trust me, no one will believe that. Few may also think you’re two sided. They may call you fake. But in the end , you’re the one who knows yourself. The real you.You cannot be happy everytime. Right from the day you’re born. You’re as greedy as everyone on this earth. 

Things might go wrong with your friends. Things might become worst at your workplace. You may feel like you’re stuck somewhere as you do not have any choice.Then, you need to make choices smartly. You need to stay there with full confidence. You need to handle all the tantrums thrown at you. You need to keep going with all appreciations as well as ignorance. Everyone cannot love you. Everytime you cannot take someone for granted.

It’s the rule of life and you can never play it in your way. You can either live with regrets , feeling sorry about yourself or maybe you can act strong hiding all your scars and emotions behind and focus on things which are more important.

Thus, RustedLeavesWriter says, Keep Going!Keep Loving !